Thousands of ‘what ifs’ went thru my head today. I don’t know why. I sometimes feel my life is empty or missing something. I knew a little while ago when I started kung fu, that part seemed ok, until I stopped going because I owed the Sifu 850 dollars and I couldn’t pay. I know I’m missing the fact that I don’t have money to play with like I used to. I lost my job almost a year ago. But, I don’t think that’s it. I know another hole in my life was filled when I started playing ice hockey again. I still play every Wednesday, so I don’t think that’s it. I have the kind of ‘what ifs’ like what if I didn’t meet the people I did, what if I wasn’t stubborn and bought that Honda in the first place, what if I wasn’t short, what if I had better luck, what if I won a million dollars, that type of stupid sh’t. I dunno where my mind is. At least I have hockey today!

After school Ryan, Tanya, Charlie and I took a mini road trip to The City, San Francisco. Had to buy some air freshener for Ryan and my car. I just love those little things in life sometimes. I miss the days where I just throw away money. I wanna turbo kit for my car, body kit and paint, a Honda CBR motorcycle, Subaru WRX all-wheel drive turbo, and IS300, the list goes on and on. The trip lasted about a good 4 hours. It’s nice to get out once in a while. Too bad it had to be The City, I don’t really like going there. It

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I’m going to have to appologize, I’ve been MIA for quite some time now. I suppose it’s the fact that I’ve been doing alot in school lately, been biting the balls pretty bad. Oh, well. Such is life. I gotta get out someday… Only to go back again like most people I know.

Hockey was kick ass today. Although I didn’t score any goals today, I did get two assists and managed to win the game with a sorry score of 2 – 10. *Sigh*

Sad how that’s all I have to update with after the break from blogging. I haven’t had much to say. I don’t even know what I’m doing here, I need help!

On a side note, watch this music video by Kiss, no not the American group. It brings a little hope that there still are great people out there for you. Sure it’s in Korean, you might not understand it, hell I don’t. If anyone can translate what the people say in the video, it would help me out a bunch thanks. If you’re not in a mushy mood, don’t bother watching. ‘Cause it might bring a tear or two to your eye, or not. Email me what you think about the video. I took off the responses ’cause I wanted to hear what people think without ruining it for anyone else. Don’t even think about posting elsewhere, they will be removed.

Edited 1/24/02 12:04 Ok, I decided to put back the responses. But, if you read before you watch it, it’s not my responsibility if it ruins it for you.

Last night I was too tired to play. But, I managed to stay in the whole game. What seemed to be a fairly even game through the first two periods, changed drastically when we scored two more goals in the third to go on and win it 6-4. I came out with 2 goals for my self. I guess that makes up for the whopping zero points I got last week.

Damn, I got sick. I spent all weekend sleeping, watching TV, and well did absolutely nothing. So, what’s different? I suppose nothing. I guess the fact that I felt like crap the whole weekend kinda dampered the fact that I had some time off from school, which started last week. Yuck. More later on tomorrow…

Weird, with this Greymatter thing, when I add a new entry and click the subject line, then press the enter key it goes to the Login screen. Weird.

Of all of the G– D—- luck I have in this Universe… My car is in the shop again. I brought it in originally for an oil leak, and it turns out that there’s three different leaks I need to tend to: oil, radiator, and power steering fluid. Power steering fluid?! Where the hell did that come from!? Get this, a new power steering pump is $600. WTF? a used/rebuilt is about $250 and labor is about $175. SIGH The oil leak they MIGHT do it under the warranty, maybe not, since I brought it back after the warranty. But, hey I’ve put so much money into that damn place, they better do it for free…

I don’t think I’ve played that bad of a game in a long time, if not ever. I managed to fail several really good scoring chances. On top of that, I also let a goal in. Well, not as bad as it seems. I was behind a guy hooking him with my stick to distract him, and pulled the cut toward the net and shot then scored. Really put a damper on my game. That and the fact that I ran out of water in the middle of the game. We had a rather disappointing game as we were forced to take a tie for the game. I suppose 1 point for a tie is better than 0 for a loss, but there goes our winning streak. My mother made an interesting observation. I play better when I have an audience. but both my mom and my dad don’t count…

OMG Finally! I’ve finally successfully installed Linux on a machine! That’s pretty sad sounding, coming from a Ex-Unix Systems Administrator. I don’t know why I’ve had so much trouble before. Must be the cheap as$ parts I’ve been using. Maybe I can get rid of Windows all together! Well, maybe not. How to I play all my games? Sure, there are some linux ver. games, but more on Win. Plus my box is a Sh’tty 266mhz comp. Sure they say you don’t need an elaborate lightning quick box to use Linux, but it helps.

OMFG. Just finished tonight’s Sharks game, Lord, they destroyed the Florida Panthers. 6-0? LOL, Crazy. One play where Owen Nolan fakes a shot with a semi drop-pass for Adam Graves to score the fifth goal. There are no real words to describe the play, you just have to see it! What a game! This has to be the most penalties I’ve seen in one game. 27 penalties total. Hockey has to be the best game ever! The only thing I miss is the cheerleaders! LOL, but then again when you have sweaty toothless guys kicking the sh’t out of each other, you kinda forget about it.

Last Wednesday, I played a pretty good game. I dunno what happened to my post but oh well. I also lost my post New Years drunken explanation. Oh well. I managed to keep myself full of energy, I dunno what was up! We took the game with a 9-4 lead. I managed to grab two of those. What sucks is we might have gotten one of our members yanked from our team ’cause supposedly he belongs on the Tuesday league (advanced). I guess I’ll find out next week if we have a player taken. Man he’s really good too. Guess I’ll have to pick up the slack…