For years and years my window to my room was broken somehow. I managed to tape it up for a while, to keep out the elements. For a few weeks now, there’s this void where my window used to be. I was wondering why my room was always so damn cold. Finally today I got off my duff and bought some wood to cover the void. Now my room smells like pine. I just HAD to cover up that damn hole, I have this little phobia about bugs. Ok, I have this BIG phobia of bugs. The hole was being closed today. Well, It’s now closed and, hurrah, no bugs.

I had a dream last night, maybe a little too real. I dreamt I was walking around school, I think it was a high school or something but I don’t think I was in school (it was some school limbo), when in the corner of my eye I see some girl

Ah, I love it. Wednesdays. Ice hockey, the King of Sports. It was a hard stuggle in the first period when we were down 2-0. It was a loss, I just felt it. When out of the blue we were 2-2, but then the other team answers back with a 3-2 goal. Some where shortly after we score 2 ass-whooping goals to make it 5-3. 3rd period, alot of time for them to catch up, we get a penalty, and yet another one. 5-on-3s are NOT fun, hehe. I managed to kill the full 5-on-3 time. Needless to say I was TI-ERD!!! That was my greatest acomplishment the whole game as I didn’t score any goals or assists today. The thing that pissed me off today was the last 10 seconds of the game I was cross-checked smacked my head on the ground. I looked around for the refs, nothing. Sure we were up by 2 and it was only 10 seconds left, but it’s the principle. Maybe the whiskey sour didn’t help after all…

Thousands of ‘what ifs’ went thru my head today. I don’t know why. I sometimes feel my life is empty or missing something. I knew a little while ago when I started kung fu, that part seemed ok, until I stopped going because I owed the Sifu 850 dollars and I couldn’t pay. I know I’m missing the fact that I don’t have money to play with like I used to. I lost my job almost a year ago. But, I don’t think that’s it. I know another hole in my life was filled when I started playing ice hockey again. I still play every Wednesday, so I don’t think that’s it. I have the kind of ‘what ifs’ like what if I didn’t meet the people I did, what if I wasn’t stubborn and bought that Honda in the first place, what if I wasn’t short, what if I had better luck, what if I won a million dollars, that type of stupid sh’t. I dunno where my mind is. At least I have hockey today!

After school Ryan, Tanya, Charlie and I took a mini road trip to The City, San Francisco. Had to buy some air freshener for Ryan and my car. I just love those little things in life sometimes. I miss the days where I just throw away money. I wanna turbo kit for my car, body kit and paint, a Honda CBR motorcycle, Subaru WRX all-wheel drive turbo, and IS300, the list goes on and on. The trip lasted about a good 4 hours. It’s nice to get out once in a while. Too bad it had to be The City, I don’t really like going there. It

Holy crap someone was bored. telnet towel.blinkenlights.nl

I’m going to have to appologize, I’ve been MIA for quite some time now. I suppose it’s the fact that I’ve been doing alot in school lately, been biting the balls pretty bad. Oh, well. Such is life. I gotta get out someday… Only to go back again like most people I know.

Hockey was kick ass today. Although I didn’t score any goals today, I did get two assists and managed to win the game with a sorry score of 2 – 10. *Sigh*

Sad how that’s all I have to update with after the break from blogging. I haven’t had much to say. I don’t even know what I’m doing here, I need help!

On a side note, watch this music video by Kiss, no not the American group. It brings a little hope that there still are great people out there for you. Sure it’s in Korean, you might not understand it, hell I don’t. If anyone can translate what the people say in the video, it would help me out a bunch thanks. If you’re not in a mushy mood, don’t bother watching. ‘Cause it might bring a tear or two to your eye, or not. Email me what you think about the video. I took off the responses ’cause I wanted to hear what people think without ruining it for anyone else. Don’t even think about posting elsewhere, they will be removed.

Edited 1/24/02 12:04 Ok, I decided to put back the responses. But, if you read before you watch it, it’s not my responsibility if it ruins it for you.

Last night I was too tired to play. But, I managed to stay in the whole game. What seemed to be a fairly even game through the first two periods, changed drastically when we scored two more goals in the third to go on and win it 6-4. I came out with 2 goals for my self. I guess that makes up for the whopping zero points I got last week.

Damn, I got sick. I spent all weekend sleeping, watching TV, and well did absolutely nothing. So, what’s different? I suppose nothing. I guess the fact that I felt like crap the whole weekend kinda dampered the fact that I had some time off from school, which started last week. Yuck. More later on tomorrow…

Weird, with this Greymatter thing, when I add a new entry and click the subject line, then press the enter key it goes to the Login screen. Weird.

Of all of the G– D—- luck I have in this Universe… My car is in the shop again. I brought it in originally for an oil leak, and it turns out that there’s three different leaks I need to tend to: oil, radiator, and power steering fluid. Power steering fluid?! Where the hell did that come from!? Get this, a new power steering pump is $600. WTF? a used/rebuilt is about $250 and labor is about $175. SIGH The oil leak they MIGHT do it under the warranty, maybe not, since I brought it back after the warranty. But, hey I’ve put so much money into that damn place, they better do it for free…